Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit - Matthew 28:19

Before I knew Jesus, my life had no direction. I was a teenager when Jesus came into my heart. I can still remember the joy and happiness I felt… I come from a broken family whereby my father is abusive towards my mother and sisters. I was only 4 years old and I can still remember my father would come home late and drunk and would bully and pick on my mother. My mother use to wake us up in the middle of the night and we would have to quietly sneak out of the house. When my father wakes up the next morning and realizes that we are gone, he would go searching for us. He always managed to find us. And when he does, he would be sorry and promises never to happen again. After a week, everything would go back to normal or I should say a nightmare!

This went on until I was 6 when my mother took up the courage to leave my father for good. Mother started to work even harder to support us. She had to babysit 4 children the whole day and in the night we had to help her do packaging for the textile factory. But by God’s grace we made it with the little money we had although life was not easy at all then.

By the time I was a teenager, my mother was staying in as a helper for a family. I was mostly all alone except for meals at the employer’s house. Nobody knew that I was lonely and not doing very well in school. I was mixing with school gangs and not attending school regularly. Some nights I would cry in frustration and hurt myself by banging my head on the wall until one day a family friend invited me to a youth meeting in church. At first I was not sure but the more I attended the more I felt this God who they call Jesus, understood me. But I was still stubborn because I can never think anyone can give love what more His life for a stranger. I never knew love from a father and never believed anyone or God could love me. One night as usual I was alone at home, struggling with the fact that Jesus loves me and died for my sins… with full of emptiness I broke down and cried my heart out to Jesus. While I was on my knees, I physically felt a big, warm, gentle hug that lasted a long while that I never felt before. I had so much peace and felt so much love, its like someone is telling me “It’s OK I’m here for you and you can count on Me”. This is the very first time I felt a father’s love and can remember it even today. After that night I knew that Jesus is real. He is my father, my friend and my God. Life has never been the same ever since. Knowing Jesus is the greatest gift that anyone could have. Although life can sometimes be tough but I now know that Jesus is watching over me. He has blessed me with a good job, a beautiful wife, and a lovely son. More than that, God has a great plan for my life and for you too. He has taught me to forgive my father and through my testimony, my mother has received Jesus in her heart and is now living her life for Jesus. Give God a chance, your life will be transformed.

Raymond Rajanayagam June 2005